We all love Phenomenal!

[dedafmonteur]

Phenomenal is having a bad time, so i though we chear him up.
Tell here what you think about Phenomenal.
Ill start:

Phenomenal, you are a really nice guys, your designs rock! If you leave ill leave.
So, please stay, your a awsome guy, serious!

[lewson]

Phenomenal, you're the one that encouraged me to join these forums, since im 13, and so are you. 

[noah03ark]

you're always nice and never mean

[phenomenal]

Nobody loves me, not even my family, they all went to central london today, while they made me stay here.

Phenomenal is having a bad time, so i though we chear him up.
Tell here what you think about Phenomenal.
Ill start:

Phenomenal, you are a really nice guys, your designs rock! If you leave ill leave.
So, please stay, your a awsome guy, serious!

I'm always having a bad time, don't know why but everyday of mine is a hell. I don't want to design anymore, im only being used and bullied even more because of it, and besides, every other designer i know is better than me.

[dedafmonteur]

well, Maybe you can help arround here. idk maybe for jewels or some like that and get paid a little bit.
just ask neubit. you can allways try....


and dont leave dude

[Nemesis]

you having a hard life makes me upset, your the best artist i know for your age- even better than a mate of mine whos good too (dont tell him though shh), im with , you leave then i leave too. every meber on AM is special including you and it just hurts to know some people have such a hard life.

we're all here for you

[phenomenal]

well, Maybe you can help arround here. idk maybe for jewels or some like that and get paid a little bit.
just ask neubit. you can allways try....


and dont leave dude

Ken's doing that, i doubt he needs my help as I know how good he is. Anyway, i cannot design now anyway even if i wanted to. Im stuck on a computer with no vga card and the onboard graphics on the motherboard, well, the driver disk doesnt work. So im stuck on a 16-bit 640x480 resolution. Thus it will be extremly hard to design. Anyway, i dont want to do design anymore. Im being mistreated and way way way underpaid, in a whole year, i only made £15. Yet i think im the one thats been designing for the longest on these forums. Ive been designing since i was 6 and coding since i was 10.

you having a hard life makes me upset, your the best artist i know for your age- even better than a mate of mine whos good too (dont tell him though shh), im with , you leave then i leave too. every meber on AM is special including you and it just hurts to know some people have such a hard life.

we're all here for you

Thing is, mainly because of my age, nobody treats me seriously enough. On myspace there has been alot of idiots that just waste my time. Novicane, now his the worst, i want to stab him in his eye. He actually edited my layout, then swore at me, then insulted me, then when i just say 'dont waste my time then' he starts being racist to me and then trying to destroy my bandwidth. Little ms, she wanted a layout, know i finished it, she doesnt want it. Neici didnt even say thanks, punkshal only complains. the only people that actually appriciated it was my brother (well he has too sorta), flip (but his a noob) and kenshin (although he got pissed off at me, called me things like unreliable and then cut my pay in half).

Phenomenal, you're the one that encouraged me to join these forums, since im 13, and so are you. 

Thanks, but, i doubt it was me that brought you here, im not one of the acidmodders that are featured in ALL acidmod videos. Im never spoken about, nobody actually cares, people are only like this when im in need, but all other times, they hate me. Unlike my family, when i was in hospital, for a whole month, they didnt even visit me, stupid ungratful family.

I've only had one friend that i knew in person that understood me, he suffered from depression too. He knew how i felt, and then a few years ago, he commited suicide.

[TheG4mer]

kenshin (although he got pissed off at me, called me things like unreliable and then cut my pay in half). He knew how i felt, and then a few years ago, he commited suicide.

1. wow you get paid thats a thubs up
2.sorry for that

[budgray19]

Nobody loves me, not even my family, they all went to central london today, while they made me stay here.
I'm always having a bad time, don't know why but everyday of mine is a hell. I don't want to design anymore, im only being used and bullied even more because of it, and besides, every other designer i know is better than me.

they might be buying u presents and they cant have u with them or ull see..
that might be it.. i think

[phenomenal]

they might be buying u presents and they cant have u with them or ull see..
that might be it.. i think

if they were buying 'me' presents, then they wouldnt of taken my little brother.

[budgray19]

u cant be 100% on that
when my mom and dad bought me some big stuff
my lil bro was outa the picture
i migt be something big
so they dont want  ur lil bro to know







btw rememberw hat i told u

take a hammer to wood and old brick and rocks and small change liek i do with pennys
it will help

u need to learn to look on the brighter side of things man
if one thing gets u down just say
well f*** him or f*** that
dood u wouldnt belive how bad i got make fun of because of my weight
i had to deal with it
and by the 7th grade when i rusend our Q-B for the yr
yea
the didnt mess with me anymore
because they saw that i could use what they where makeing fun of them
to hurt them
and very badly too


and when ppl dont belive u
just sit back and watch it all play out
and when they relize that u where right then u can say
i told ya so but u dont belive me
if u keep letting thease small things get to ya then lifes gonna suck man
find a happy place like happy gilmore
he pictures bewbs w leather and his grandma getting rich..

and u know what
if they dont like what u did then f him


btw how did u do his myspace(the guy that was racisest)
because if u still have the pass and it works
hes a idiot
tag his myspace with stuff liek i am a rasict bastard with no shweaty balls lol
and change his password

[phenomenal]

u cant be 100% on that
when my mom and dad bought me some big stuff
my lil bro was outa the picture
i migt be something big
so they dont want  ur lil bro to know







btw rememberw hat i told u

take a hammer to wood and old brick and rocks and small change liek i do with pennys
it will help

u need to learn to look on the brighter side of things man
if one thing gets u down just say
well f*** him or f*** that
dood u wouldnt belive how bad i got make fun of because of my weight
i had to deal with it
and by the 7th grade when i rusend our Q-B for the yr
yea
the didnt mess with me anymore
because they saw that i could use what they where makeing fun of them
to hurt them
and very badly too


and when ppl dont belive u
just sit back and watch it all play out
and when they relize that u where right then u can say
i told ya so but u dont belive me
if u keep letting thease small things get to ya then lifes gonna suck man
find a happy place like happy gilmore
he pictures bewbs w leather and his grandma getting rich..

and u know what
if they dont like what u did then f him


btw how did u do his myspace(the guy that was racisest)
because if u still have the pass and it works
hes a idiot
tag his myspace with stuff liek i am a rasict bastard with no shweaty balls lol
and change his password

Dude, i personnally dont have a hammer, i dont ave anything. But, about that racist twit, i sent him a code, as i do with all my clients, although ken and my bro just gave me their details so i could log onto it and change it as they were busy (ken was at work, where they block myspace and my brother was in central london).

Anyway, i can't do anything right, if i even tried to do a simple task like hit nails into wood, id probaly smash my thumb, slip then be attacked by a bear, nobody would give a dam and my mum will tell me off.

I've actually been bullied all my life, everyday of school i would get atleast 1 racist comment. Anyway, whats the point of the government making laws if they dont even enforce them. Nobody does. Like for example, ive been slashed with a knife twice in my life already, both in my leg, one in school and one out of school. When i was in school, there was blood dripping down my leg and onto my shoe, yet the teacher didnt even let me go to the medical room. Even worse, i told my head teacher about the incident, all she said was "Well, these things happen, nothing i can do about it."

Stupid school, stupid life, i hope my head teacher dies in a big house fire where here head explodes and a cat rapes her.

If the british government wants to make Britian the safest place to be, then why don't he get off his ass, stop putting all tax money into his pocket and get some real police. Police around here are leterly friends with the thugs, the police will never charge them or arrest them. The worst they will get is a friendly 'warning'. Stupid police, i pay money for what! Yes, i do pay tax, like on tuesday, i had to pay £60 tax for buying something, stupid greedy government, robbing kids!

[lewson]

Phenomenal try a Few days away from the internet, playing out, having fun, you're 13 you don't NEED money, have a chill out period. 

[IndyChav]

I agree with lewson

AAAANND i personally think youre a better designer than me 

AAAnd your younger ... now im depressed =P

[phenomenal]

Phenomenal try a Few days away from the internet, playing out, having fun, you're 13 you don't NEED money, have a chill out period. 

I barely use a computer now, due to it being such a retard.

Anyway, i cannot play out, i live in britian and it has bloody :censord: weather. Ill end up getting a bad cold.

So i have to stay in doors, but all that goes on is my little brother hurting himself and blaming me, and me just sitting on my bed crying all night.

In my life there is no such thing as fun, my computer cant even handle a picture for grpahics so i cant play games on that, i dont own any game consoles except for my psp, which is absolutely destroyed. I cant play with people because they dont like me.

Every morning i awake with hatred. I seem to just say "Another f***ing crappy day, why live life?"

My big brother went university (his still going), my parents said my lil bro is going university, but they said i aint, wtf!!!

Stupid life, its not worth living, im a waste of space! I have no use on this world

1. wow you get paid thats a thubs up
2.sorry for that

wtf thats not what i said

I agree with lewson

AAAANND i personally think youre a better designer than me 

AAAnd your younger ... now im depressed =P

doubt im better than you, even if i was better anyway, you will have a better chance of getting far in life

[PspKicks316]

Dude your an amazing person,we all love you here,and most of all your an absolutely amazing artist!You have amazing designs,I love them!Don't go,don't do anything bad.Please,if you ever need something we're here for you,anything at all.Whether it be to rant,or just talk,we're here.

[ProperBritish]

Now Phenomenal,

youve got to look up one the bright side, you ARE a great designer. You are a valued person.

All that stuff about the knives and noone caring about you, thats not you doing someting wrong... its those people, that headteacher for example, that are the horrible people. Youve done nothing wrong and trust me, life will pick up. Trust me, it does. 3 years ago i was your age and was practically the most unpopular person in school, with 2 friends that surprise surprise took the piss and bullied me all the time. Now, ive got a girlfriend, and massive gang of friends that take me seriously and we all have a laugh.

The only thing i can say is, when you wake up each morning, forget the day before, treat each day afresh, as if it were your first day on earth. Things wont snowball that way. And eventually, when you can, stand up to the things wrong and sort them out. Show them that you have POWER and Self Confidence. That, my friend is enough to make you feel good about yourself.

To put it bluntly, dont complain, fix the problems that you have. But only when  you are ready.

Don't leave Phenomenal, you pwn.

ProperBritish

[phenomenal]

The only thing i can say is, when you wake up each morning, forget the day before, treat each day afresh, as if it were your first day on earth.

Until i step outside my door a group of chavs come along and put me over and say things like "Haha, asian people are so lame, they are so crap"

It really pisses me off that not even police care. Unless if something was to happen to an english person, they would. Racist Police, i hate living here, everybody is so racist. I hate life.

[PspKicks316]

Stop talking about suicide!! Please!! Your life is better than a lot of peoples' out there, just remember that.When things like that are said,just TRY to ignore it,or if you must,fight back! People who make fun of others have no life,they're a bunch of :censored:es who have nothing better to do with their lives but be :censored:es to others because they have no friends.Please phenomenal,be thankful for the few things you have,because theres others with nothing.And please,whatever you do,don't commit suicide.Because if you think about it,your only 13,and there's plenty of other people your going to meet in your life.Just think,someone who you've never met before,but were destined to meet,their life would be changed drastcally(for the worse) if they end up never meeting you because you killed yourself.Just think about that,and don't do anything.

[TheG4mer]

lol, chavs are usless scum, ignore them

[ProperBritish]

i agree that england is a crap place to live... but i wouldnt let chavs get you down... of all people most chavs i know dont have the mental capacity to talk, walk and do just about anything. obviously there are exceptions though.

you > chavs

[dedafmonteur]

over here 60% is foreign. be glad you have never:

- lost a friend that shot in the head
- 4 family people died of cancer
- seen a woman and 2 kids get killed in a car accident.

and more....

[lewson]

ChAV's take the mick for a laugh, it the olny thing they can get to fun, try walking a diffrent way to school, or become one! if you wanna talk add me on msn i think my addy's in my profile.

[IndyChav]

Im a chav and im not like that ... just so you know not ALL people are like that!

Racist people are merely demeaning their own lives! dont lower yourself to them jsut walk on and ignore, i know its hard but its what you gotta do. We're here for you ! and dont you forget it!

You are a better designer than me, and i want to be a lawyer this is just a hobby, but youre good enough to make it all the way man!

You need to get these negative thoughts out of your head, once you get a bit older youll realise that the people you knew to hate arent around anymore, you will have surpassed them on every level.

Its not quite the same, but ive been called gay most of my life, due to my fashion sense and mind set. and ive grown into a 6foot 3 boxer who noone messes with, and they gay qualities are sitll here =P

Also as you get older everyone wises the f*ck up and noone is prejudice. Its hard but you just gotta wait it out and prove to them that you are special and you can acomplish more than a group of chavs ever will!

[MARIOPARTY53]

Phenomenal you rule!!!

and if your having a bad time, and your family dosnt care about, you then, should have something that they would need or want and say:who are you people again?

[hamchapman]

I really can't be arsed to read all this but the bit I did read about your siblings and Universities...your parents probably aren't gonna pay for you to go to University because they know that you can do it all on your own!

[phenomenal]

I really can't be arsed to read all this but the bit I did read about your siblings and Universities...your parents probably aren't gonna pay for you to go to University because they know that you can do it all on your own!

my parents dont even know i can code or design

Im a chav and im not like that ... just so you know not ALL people are like that!

Racist people are merely demeaning their own lives! dont lower yourself to them jsut walk on and ignore, i know its hard but its what you gotta do. We're here for you ! and dont you forget it!

You are a better designer than me, and i want to be a lawyer this is just a hobby, but youre good enough to make it all the way man!

You need to get these negative thoughts out of your head, once you get a bit older youll realise that the people you knew to hate arent around anymore, you will have surpassed them on every level.

Its not quite the same, but ive been called gay most of my life, due to my fashion sense and mind set. and ive grown into a 6foot 3 boxer who noone messes with, and they gay qualities are sitll here =P

Also as you get older everyone wises the f*ck up and noone is prejudice. Its hard but you just gotta wait it out and prove to them that you are special and you can acomplish more than a group of chavs ever will!

I know you ain't the proper chav, they would speak gay and say stuff instead of what you said, they will say "Init mate, aveing a laugh @ asian ppl, they suck"

I'm going to end up kinda short anyway, due to my mum being filipino and all filipino's being short.

Its almost impossible to get these thoughts out of my head, i suffer from depression, and it wont let it go away, i doubt even a phyciatrist can cure me now. I think the depression will never go and if i didnt commit suicide, then it would of ruined my life anyway.

over here 60% is foreign. be glad you have never:

- lost a friend that shot in the head
- 4 family people died of cancer
- seen a woman and 2 kids get killed in a car accident.

and more....

-my only friend commited suicide
-Nobody in my family cared if i died

The only person in my family that actually dont want me dead is my big brother, although he uses me.



Just answer this people, i dont understand why i should live, i be born, i suffer then i die, what sort of life is that?

Why do we all live, just to die.

[dedafmonteur]

i was depressed for a long time to. had the same feelings as you. it will pass.....it just takes time.
my mam allways hided for me that my best friend was shot, i allmost wanted to kill er for that!
but like kenshiffx says: Firts think before you act.
and it helps, so thanks ken!

[lewson]

Look at all these people, phenomenal, were all here for you when you're down, When you're older you are going to be good with computers. i think you should talk to you're parent's about this, they'll help the best, anyway im off to bed *yawns*.

[ryan0]

from the age of 8-11 i had chronic depression and was on anti depressants and ritalin (i have add),and it was like a living hell,but after i was done in primary school,it was off to a secondary school miles away from those other bastards,i had found a silver lining,the day my depression was cured was the day i left that godforsaken primary school,until i realised that the universe has a strange way of unfolding itself in just the right way,the motto i live by is "it's not the jumper your wearing,its how you wear the jumper",it just means if you feel good bout yourself others will feel good about you,stay well dude and dont leave
regards
ryan0

[Timmy]

my god if i started to take chavs seriously like you i'd have a negative perspective on life as well.

seriously bro, they are called chavs for a reason, they are grouped for being wannabe gangstas, take them seriously and your just adding fuel to the fire (GIMME THAT WHICH I DESIRE!!!!!)

[budgray19]

ive kinda been busy latly so i havent had the time to respond
but where i live
im out numbered by mexicans
i would fight the buttholes but they out number the white ppl in my school like 10-20 to 1

so i deal with this EVERY DAMM DAY!!!!!!!!
if ur worryed about makein it in life
come to america
forgeners have a better chance to make it than americans to be truthful
even if u hate america
u cant say u wounldnt liek to come here

[Slimby]

Don't get sad: Get angry. I suffer from depression too, and it's not a lot of fun. When people start to hack me off, I tend to throw it back to them. I was riding home the other day, and got tailgated by this woman. She tried to run me off the road, then stopped in front of me and starting yelling at me. Now I could have gone home, crawled into bed and started crying, but instead I wound out the bike til I couldn't hear her, flipped her the bird and shot off down the road with the rear tyre squealing. My point? Don't get all unhappy, take it as a challenge, not a barrier. Life's a , but that doesn't mean you can't disrespect it and make it do the dishes.

Slimby

[dedafmonteur]

bud, we have the same over here. loads of people are from marokko or some like that.
I dont mind they live over here but they tease everyone, like they are better. I allways warn them 3 times after that i just punsh the one who's closest to me. I know ill get beat back but never give up...
If they want make my life horrible by teasiing me  than ill make their live's a true hell.

[ccccpie]

try living in arizona i live close to the border and there are tons of illegals

[budgray19]

yea
umm... i dont think u understand
when u fight a mexican
u fight him his family his brother migeule
and 10 of his other friends
u have never fought untill u have fought a mexican
them lil fu**ers are whimps when it comes to fighting
they always need someone to back em up
when there gettin their ass beat
they need back up to beat the crap outa u
if they r beatin the crap outa u
they call in their friends to beat the hell outa u with their friends
then say ur weak and cant fight and make bs rumors

[TheG4mer]

like 1/3 of berlin are turks


! i win !

[phenomenal]

I dont have the strenght to beat a whole crowd of chavs, let alone one

Im just a weak little kid that has no friends and lives a horrible life

I dont find no point of my life. If life is meant to be fun at times, then where is my share of fun. The only time something fun happens, some idiot will come and ruin it.

I hate my life, i want to end it right now! Ive tried before, i was going to die, but then some paramedics save me. Although that time i didnt want them to come and save me.



Also about the guys that said "if u leave, ill leave". I really doubt you will, nobody makes much of an effort for me. Nobody does, nobody cares about me. Nobody cares weather i live or die.

If you were living life how im living mine you would want to kill yourself too.

-My parents hate me
-I have no friends
-Have nothing
-I can't do anything right
-I have no skills i need
-Nobody takes me seriously
-I have no money
-I suffer from depression
-Major companys always seem to rip me off
-Im only used


This is the only place now where i can talk and wont be harrased and be racially assulted or attacked. I hate life, and everyone hates me. Im not for this world. Everyone is better off by me being dead. Im a waste of space.

And since some people are starting to shout at me and be bas*ards like mr-7. now i have nowhere to freely talk, matter of fact, nobody to talk to.

Right now, im home alone, and i have access to many large kicthen knifes. Im not afriad.

I'd rather die than live this sh*tty arse life.

[ProperBritish]

IM BEING VERY SERIOUS. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF.

[phenomenal]

IM BEING VERY SERIOUS. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF.

I either live through a hell, then suffer and not even support myself when im older and live in poverty and lots of crime. Or get it over and done with. No point of my life

[IndyChav]

youre really young though!

it would be a waste yes youre going through hellish times, but it wont always be like that

for one youre an amazing graphic designer and those lads bring in the bucks!! :P

and crime isnt all that bad dont do ANYTHIGN stupid, we all care about you, look how much response youve had!!

chavs are :censored:s! dont pay attention to them
let people know what youre good at by showing them
it wont be bad forever trust me, i went through a stage like that, i had nothing, i turned to boxing, football and photoshop and found out i can do somethign with that the respect came rolling in

just thikn about what i said...

[phenomenal]

youre really young though!

it would be a waste yes youre going through hellish times, but it wont always be like that

for one youre an amazing graphic designer and those lads bring in the bucks!! :P

and crime isnt all that bad dont do ANYTHIGN stupid, we all care about you, look how much response youve had!!

chavs are :censored:s! dont pay attention to them
let people know what youre good at by showing them
it wont be bad forever trust me, i went through a stage like that, i had nothing, i turned to boxing, football and photoshop and found out i can do somethign with that the respect came rolling in

just thikn about what i said...

People already know i design and code. They dont know how hard it is. And once i told some, they did not care. They beat me up more. Those ba*tards dont have any sympthoty. I want to quit design, mainly because everybody uses me and those that dont use me, insult me because i didnt design for them. My only skill, has no point to it. Im not going to get anywhere with it. Im way unfit, so i wouldnt even dream becoming stronger.

I will always live like this. I know how my life can go, i have to options:
Option one:
Live this sh*tty life and then kill myself now.

Or

Option two:
Live this sh*tty life, get bullied, used and assulted all of it. I dont get a good education because of my parents (no university) and then when i move out, i stuggle to make enough food to not die of starvation. Then kill myself

I'd rather end my suffering now! There is no point to my life, i know how it will go. I know its a waste, but what a waste of a life to have no achievment, or even friends. Nobody likes me. I am a nobody. I have a knife right beside me. I'm ready to do it. Okay?

My life is sh*t.

Imagine this. You walk back from work one day. You find out wife goes off having an affiar with your best friend. She takes the kids, she kicks you out your house. All your friends just start to hate you. Nobody wants to talk to you. You get fired, you get robbed. Now you own nothing. Nowhere to go, nothing to do. Thats how i feel.

[ProperBritish]

See now... my mum had an affair... and her and my dad divorced because of it (duh). I put it behind me, and focus on tomorrow. I cant see how you feel like this (the affair stuff) because NONE of that stuff happened to you! You are basing your life on what MIGHT happen... not what will. You want Uni? After 6th form take a year out... get a job... earn the money for Uni yourself! Its what im gonna do... and I know im gonna feel so happy when I achieve that which i earned.

[phenomenal]

I wont achieve anything in life.

Im just going to be used

And yes, ive been cheated on

Also, i wont be able to make that sort of money needed in a year

Even if i did, my little brother will steal it and then i will get told off wtf?!!

[ProperBritish]

My cousin earned what he needed to go to Oxford by working at Spar for a year. Hes an accountant now.
How would your brother steal it if it were in a bank account? Solutions... not Problems 

[IndyChav]

see more solutions

do a gap year earn some money do what YOU want to do with your life... forget about your problems look onwards on what can be done to make it better

[ProperBritish]

For every problem... theres a legitimate solution.

Dude I sound like a philosopher or some shizz like that.

[IndyChav]

preach brother preach!

[ProperBritish]

CAN I GET A HALLELUJAH!

[budgray19]

-My parents hate me
-I have no friends
-Have nothing
-I can't do anything right
-I have no skills i need
-Nobody takes me seriously
-I have no money
-I suffer from depression
-Major companys always seem to rip me off
-Im only used


if ur parents hated u that much they wouldnt let u live in their house
u do have friends. im ur friend
u couldnt possibly have nothing
ur sig is righta nd it looks awsome to me
im takeing u seriously
if we didnt take u seriously we wouldnt be typeing to u about trying to make u feel better
we wouldnt be takeing the time to write long posts or even clevar posts on here to make u feel btter
i have no money either
the depression is just getting u down
when u get mad say its the depression
its trying to get me down
think of ur depression as somebody in ur head and hes mentaly trying to get u mad
and dont let him do that

major companys always rip us off(the consumer)
u just need to use back man
u need to break out of ur shell of depression
u need to fight back
find something u love and do it
thats what will get u places in the world
find a job or learn how to something realy good and do it
DO IT!
it will help
me
im in building trades and im also a part time handy man or carpenter roghtend or tiles it dont matter
when u build something and makes u feel acomplished
TRUST ME!
DONT FLUFF OFF WHAT IM SAYING MAN(thats caps for incuregment)

[phenomenal]

My cousin earned what he needed to go to Oxford by working at Spar for a year. Hes an accountant now.
How would your brother steal it if it were in a bank account? Solutions... not Problems 

My mum knows my bank account details, some reason, money seems to always go from it, my mum says its the banks 'interest', ofcourse mum, a bank really takes £100 a week doesnt it...

see more solutions

do a gap year earn some money do what YOU want to do with your life... forget about your problems look onwards on what can be done to make it better

Whenever i find a solution to anything in life, it gets worse.

-My parents hate me
-I have no friends
-Have nothing
-I can't do anything right
-I have no skills i need
-Nobody takes me seriously
-I have no money
-I suffer from depression
-Major companys always seem to rip me off
-Im only used


if ur parents hated u that much they wouldnt let u live in their house
u do have friends. im ur friend
u couldnt possibly have nothing
ur sig is righta nd it looks awsome to me
im takeing u seriously
if we didnt take u seriously we wouldnt be typeing to u about trying to make u feel better
we wouldnt be takeing the time to write long posts or even clevar posts on here to make u feel btter
i have no money either
the depression is just getting u down
when u get mad say its the depression
its trying to get me down
think of ur depression as somebody in ur head and hes mentaly trying to get u mad
and dont let him do that

major companys always rip us off(the consumer)
u just need to use back man
u need to break out of ur shell of depression
u need to fight back
find something u love and do it
thats what will get u places in the world
find a job or learn how to something realy good and do it
DO IT!
it will help
me
im in building trades and im also a part time handy man or carpenter roghtend or tiles it dont matter
when u build something and makes u feel acomplished
TRUST ME!
DONT FLUFF OFF WHAT IM SAYING MAN(thats caps for incuregment)

My parents just wont kick me out yet because its illegal at this age really.
I meant friends as somebody in person, also, if u did meet me, id guess you would do what eveybody else does and bully me.
I no longer have anything, after going on a material possesion rampage.
I meant take me seriously as a designer

People either say im 'really really talented' or im 'really really crap and will never get good'

The people that say im 'really really talented' are usally the ones that beg me everyday for a layout.

The people that say im 'really really crap and will never get good' are usally the ones well, they start as the 'talented' one but once i say no, they say this and insult me and physically hurt me.

And if i thought it was a lil guy in my head. Right now he would be stabbing the walls of my head.

AND YES, designing makes alot of money. But people dont understand how hard it is to be a coder and a designer.

One time i hacked the school database of all the grades. I had the ease to change them. Then one idiot goes, "Oh, thats easy, just talk 'computer' to da program you got up, the one with the white writing and black behind thingy"

They dont have the slightest idea, like when i told them i can code in HTML, XHTML, CSS and im learning Databasing (mySQL and SQLite), PHP, Javascript and ActionScript 2.0. And heres their dumb response, "Well thats easy, never heard of them" (Dumb twits!)

And one kid today said, "Hey ill pay you £5 if u design and code a full site for me". He meant the coding, buying the host, buying the domain, designing it and databasing it. See what i mean by im not taken seriously.

Also another kid said earlier this week, "hey, simple task for you, hack into runescape and make me level 120 and give me 1 billion gold, ok". I was like "you know how hard it is to hack a full server and as encrypted as runescape". He replied "well i know you can do it, its easy anyway, just create a thing then go on that" WTF. The world is seriously turning dumb.

[Nemesis]

firstly, you really dont know how much talent you have got. im not saying this becuase im gonna ask you for a sig or a website becuase i wouldnt even know what to put on it. you know so much about designing and coding and all this stuff and i really dont have a clue. not because i dont study but just you had the opportunity to learn it from an early age. you and me are the same age and im could even get jealous of everything you know compared to me. when you say you dont have anything that isnt true, even if some other people have the money to ask you for a website design etc they dont have what you have and thats the talent. trust me that talent will get you far in life if you use it properly.

and also im not kidding about the you leave, i leave situation.

[MARIOPARTY53]

uhh, dont kill yourself, ok? lets get that straight

[ra1n]

you know what?  you, get your freaking life together, your only 13 after all I'm only a year older. I know how it feels. Look my dad rejected me cause I'm a girl (what about my  sister?) So what if you get bullied at school? You need to fight back. Guess what I did to the guy that touched me in a bad way the other day? I beat the  out of him and moved on (I don't think he'll walk right anymore).
Your only 13 what do you need money for anyway? And if your bro does steal your money beat him up I don't care. Get yourself together and stop  being emo. 
Now please talk to professional help like a psychiatrist,psychologist, or your doctor for anti-depressants. Your too young to end your life now. Stay in school, don't do drugs,
and pull yourself together. If you need to talk get AIM and come talk to me please. We don't want you to kill yourself.Please       

[FreeK]

uhh, dont kill yourself, ok? lets get that straight

that doesnt help...

My mum knows my bank account details, some reason, money seems to always go from it, my mum says its the banks 'interest', ofcourse mum, a bank really takes £100 a week doesnt it...
I meant friends as somebody in person, also, if u did meet me, id guess you would do what eveybody else does and bully me.

And one kid today said, "Hey ill pay you £5 if u design and code a full site for me". He meant the coding, buying the host, buying the domain, designing it and databasing it. See what i mean by im not taken seriously.

Also another kid said earlier this week, "hey, simple task for you, hack into runescape and make me level 120 and give me 1 billion gold, ok". I was like "you know how hard it is to hack a full server and as encrypted as runescape". He replied "well i know you can do it, its easy anyway, just create a thing then go on that" WTF. The world is seriously turning dumb.

thats   ed up
i 2 have been diagnosed with a minor, but increasing depression and i have no probs with any races, so we problly would end up friends or close too anyways,  

thats   ed up too


its really not that hard, you only have to have the right programs

[P3nnyw1se]

I'm two years older than you, I'm emo, and I think about suicide sometimes (I don't look like I'm emo, but I am.)  BUT I NEVER think about DOING the SUICIDAL ACTIONS that come to PLAY in my HEAD!  So if you're thinking about it, it's fine, just as long as you don't DO it!  Understand Pheno?!

[FreeK]

I'm two years older than you, I'm emo, and I think about suicide sometimes (I don't look like I'm emo, but I am.)  BUT I NEVER think about DOING the SUICIDAL ACTIONS that come to PLAY in my HEAD!  So if you're thinking about it, it's fine, just as long as you don't DO it!  Understand Pheno?!

ok, if you were "emo" you wouldnt call yourself it, that is what they stereotype us as

[ra1n]

ok, if you were "emo" you wouldnt call yourself it, that is what they stereotype us as

you're not helping -.- he was trying to make a point

[Timmy]

Sniper has just sent me this PM:

u can't lock the thread because it might be depressing
were not talking about suicide, phenom, is saying he should every once in a while... Or every post he made but who cares... Take it like a man
and i never said mine was much more helpful just yea...
I was stating my points onhis things

I was going to explode and get very annoyed at this but instead i am leaving it and here is why

People are talking about taking there own lives in response to not just everyday events but psychological disorders which have been self and professionally diagnosed. made this thread in a noble attempt to make phenomenal feel better, people have followed up this too help his cause but as we can see from his past few posts, we have all tried to get him to seek help.

The last few posts have been an argument about what makes an emo an emo and who isn't helping enough or more then others which is blowing off on an alternate tangent irrelevant to the threads purpose.

On a lesser note RA1N happens to have started to flame, we have all told him to get his life together but we at least have not started to swear at him. Some times things go wrong in life, you just gotta grin an bear it and don't be a mixture of ignorant and selfish because EVERYONE goes through this stuff, not just you (but yes, as you have rightly stated before, psychological depression cant help that and I AM sorry that you feel no one can help you with it because it can be controlled)

In conclusion, if trying to stop people from talking about killing themselves because they have lost there core will to live despite being warned by in another thread not to do this is being unmanly then I'm sorry 1sniper then I'm chick, ill just have to live with that just as you will have to live with this thread being unless another admin or global mod unlocks it